It's been so long!
I don't even know how to talk anymore, it feels as if we were now speaking diferent languages and as if we couldn't understand what the other says.
But it's nice having you around.
It's nice cause lately I've been thinking of you not only when I'm awake, but also when I'm asleep. I don't remember that much of what I dream, but I have this constant feeling that you're around somehow, and it makes me feel like home.
I remember pretty often those times we used to spend together. So much fun. So much things to do, to learn, to feel. All those games, those laughs, those people we used to hang around with.
Do you remember that Blind Melon song I used to sing when I though of sunny-happy days? I've been singing it all over again when I think of that kind of days, but it won't ever be the same, cause I always end up thinking about yesterday, "it's not sane" haha.
I almost forget to tell you that I saw you at a downtown bar with your friends. The said hello to me before you got there, but when you did I was leaving and I didn't want to make such a scene to greet you, but it would've been really nice to say "Hey, how you've been?" And hear that everything's fine and know that everything's fine. From far, I did saw that you look really different, physically talking, and i could notice that you feel very comfortable with the way you look, I'm glad you do. I notice these differences because, like I said, it's been a long, long time.
Anyway, thank you for keeping in touch and remembering me. I hope, from the bottom of my heart, that everything comes just great for you; work, school, joy.
Greetings and love to all your family members and friends.


With love. Pausi.

tresseiscinco

"Gracias por cómo lo he amado, por mi éxtasis y mi ensueño, por mi encantamiento y mi calentura, por mi ternura y mi sopresa, mi dicha y mi embriaguez. Gracias por la pasión, por la intensidad, por la felicidad. Gracias."

Como un Sol

"Y todos esos días y todas esas noches, me mantuve a tu lado, en tu órbita. Como la Tierra gira alrededor del Sol para poder tener vida en sí misma, así giraba yo alrededor de ti.

Me atraías hacía ti, por la gravedad o por lo que fuera, me atraías y me quemabas, pero si no era gracias a tu capacidad para hacerlo, ¿cómo iba a florecer la vida en mí? ¿Cómo iba a mantener en equilibrio todo aquello que me conformaba y me hacía única entre los planetas, única entre las mujeres?

Te esperaba, te seguía, te sentía, o al menos lo intentaba. Al menos, porque no me dejabas, porque me acercaba y me quemaba. Así como el Sol está rodeado de llamas que no permiten a la Tierra estar cerca de él, así estabas tú lleno de barreras que no me dejaban acercarme a ti. Yo intentaba llegar al núcleo para saber de qué estaba hecho, así como la gente intenta conocer al núcleo del Sol. "

Publicado en "Cávea ¿Qué hacer todo el mes?"
Revista/Guía gratuita Xalapeña.
Febrero 2013.
Paulina Ortega.

Nota mental

"The body can be stubbern when it comes to accepting change. The mind holds out help that the body can be whole again, and the mind will always fight for help, tooth and nail. 
Until it finds a way to understanding this new reality, and aceepts that what is gone... is gone forever"

G.A. 9x12.

Inmortalidad

" Ocurre simplemente que me he vuelto inmortal.
Los colectivos me respetan, 
se inclinan ante mí, 
me lamen los zapatos como perros falderos.

Ocurre simplemente que no me muero más.
No hay angina que valga, 
no hay tifus, ni cornisa, ni guerra, ni espingarda.
Ni cáncer, ni cuchillo, ni diluvio, 
ni fiebre de Junín, ni vigilantes.

Estoy del otro lado.
Simplemente, estoy del otro lado.
De este lado, 
totalmente inmortal.

¡Qué bárbaro este asunto
de ser así, inmortal!
Festejar naciendo cada cinco minutos, 
ser un millón de pájaros, 
una atroz levadura.
¡Qué escándalo, caramba!
Este enjambre de vida, 
esta plaga llamada con mi nombre, 
desmedida, creciente.
Totalmente inmortal.

Yo tuve, es claro, gripes, miedos, presupuestos.
Jefes idiotas, pesadez de estómago, nostalgias, soledades.
Mala suerte...
Pero eso fue hace un siglo, veinte siglos.
Cuando era tan mortal, 
tan boludo y mortal, 
que ni siquiera te quería.
Date cuenta. "

Humberto Costantini.

"And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy."

"When you get to know someone all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That's why you can¡t fall in love with beauty or looks. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body, but not your heart. That's why when you really connect with a person, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant"